For one of my true loves.

And in the end, it will still be you and me....

"To have a loving relationship with a sister is not simply to have a buddy or confidante—it is to have a soulmate for life."
~ Victoria Secunda

Clothes, Money, Hello Kitty, and jelly beans

So, one of my besties gave me ALOT of advice tonight about relationships. Here it allllll is, unfiltered. Please read and comment. (That means you too, BNM!!!)


matt says (11:15 PM):
trust me this is what u do
matt says (11:15 PM):
hang out steady for a few weeks
matt says (11:15 PM):
then go a few days without him
matt says (11:15 PM):
u will know then
Rachel's Laptop says (11:15 PM):
haha i will go a whole month without him
Rachel's Laptop says (11:15 PM):
in india
Rachel's Laptop says (11:16 PM):
i do have to say the cuddling is good to have back
matt says (11:17 PM):
isnt it
matt says (11:17 PM):
India
matt says (11:17 PM):
make that ur test
matt says (11:17 PM):
i have homework for u
Rachel's Laptop says (11:17 PM):
whats that
matt says (11:17 PM):
i want u to invest 110% of yourself in this until India
matt says (11:18 PM):
have fun with syed
matt says (11:18 PM):
and spend time doing stuff that builds u guys up
matt says (11:18 PM):
after India if he is not the person u want to see first and the person u miss most of all
matt says (11:18 PM):
u will know
Rachel's Laptop says (11:19 PM):
ok, what if he is that for me, but im not for him? this test could work both ways
matt says (11:20 PM):
exactly
matt says (11:20 PM):
then move the fuck on down the road
matt says (11:20 PM):
at least u know
Rachel's Laptop says (11:21 PM):
i guess so
Rachel's Laptop says (11:21 PM):
im still weary about investing too much into it
matt says (11:21 PM):
stop being dumb
Rachel's Laptop says (11:22 PM):
hahahaha matty i love you
matt says (11:22 PM):
u could always give up a successful doctor and go back to sewer rat kevin
matt says (11:22 PM):
fucking wake up u need to look at this as opportunity
matt says (11:22 PM):
this is the future my friend
matt says (11:22 PM):
unless he gives u an out right reason to shut it down dont go looking for one
Rachel's Laptop says (11:23 PM):
oh
Rachel's Laptop says (11:23 PM):
how about the fact that we are only hanging out like twice a week?
Rachel's Laptop says (11:23 PM):
i mean, admittedly, he is a doctor and kinda busy
matt says (11:23 PM):
oh jesus enter the woman
Rachel's Laptop says (11:23 PM):
hahaha
matt says (11:23 PM):
we arent hanging out enough
matt says (11:23 PM):
then u see each other 7 days a week
matt says (11:24 PM):
and we are hanging out too much
matt says (11:24 PM):
im going to hit u
Rachel's Laptop says (11:24 PM):
i would be happy with 4
Rachel's Laptop says (11:24 PM):
lol no you wont
matt says (11:24 PM):
this is not a fucking job
matt says (11:24 PM):
u dont just put hours in
matt says (11:24 PM):
okay
Rachel's Laptop says (11:24 PM):
i want you to know i am saving this conversation b/c i love it and you so much.
matt says (11:24 PM):
rachel i know its hard as a woman to have vision but just think of the possibilities
Rachel's Laptop says (11:25 PM):
like?
Rachel's Laptop says (11:25 PM):
shoes?
matt says (11:25 PM):
no u fucking moron
matt says (11:25 PM):
like a half million dollar home
matt says (11:25 PM):
and a best friend
matt says (11:25 PM):
im a business man
matt says (11:25 PM):
u have to recognize opportunity
Rachel's Laptop says (11:26 PM):
ok ok so ill invest my time
Rachel's Laptop says (11:26 PM):
and energies
Rachel's Laptop says (11:27 PM):
and if nothing else, the sex is phenomenal
matt says (11:27 PM):
shut the fuck up about sex loook beyond that
matt says (11:27 PM):
ur just like a man
matt says (11:27 PM):
thats all u think about
matt says (11:27 PM):
im talking about connection
matt says (11:27 PM):
i can have sex with my hand but im not emotionally connected with it
Rachel's Laptop says (11:27 PM):
well, it HAS been there through the thick and thin
Rachel's Laptop says (11:28 PM):
ok so, im not supposed to think about the sex nor the shoes I could buy, but the emotional connection
matt says (11:28 PM):
just be a friend with the man first
matt says (11:28 PM):
sex second
matt says (11:29 PM):
shoes 256th

matt says (11:32 PM):
im glad u came to me about this
matt says (11:33 PM):
because ur water head girl friends would have filled your mind with grade a hog shit
Rachel's Laptop says (11:33 PM):
hahahah
Rachel's Laptop says (11:33 PM):
waterhead?
matt says (11:34 PM):
i know its hard as a woman to understand these concepts
matt says (11:34 PM):
when ur world revolves around clothes, money, hello kitty, and jelly beans
matt says (11:34 PM):
but matty will make sense of it for u

But I'm all out of eggs!!!!

Obamania!!!!!!

So, I am filled with a kajillion different emotions today. Let me list them.
1. Anticipation - cannot WAIT for results tonight!!!
2. Anxiety - what if the results are baaaad???
3. Excitement - Obama as pres! woot woot! and India is becoming more and more real to me...
4. Nervous - I am seeing a particular someone tonight and I feel like I'm going to throw up b/c of all the butterflies!!
5. Satisfied - I talked to that someone for several hours last night and I think we might be really clicking.....
6. Poor - I know this isn't a feeling, but I feel it alll the same!
7. Overworked - I have so much to do, but instead I do things like spend 2 hours on the phone or make lasagna....
8. Loved - kdub commented on how much she was anticipating a blog post from me...I'm popular!
9. Flowy - not sure how else to describe it, but I am wearing sandals and a skirt today, and it feels like summer, and I love it more than anything!!
10. Obama. Obama! OBAMA!!!

Please, ma'am may I have another?

So, this whole extra hour thing today is amazing! For the first half of the day I accomplished so much. Granted, the afternoon was kind of a waste, but oh well. I got the CUTEST scarf ever from the Buckle today, and I'm totally in L-O-V-E with it. It is spouse material, not just a one night stand, for sure. Now I am finally excited about it getting cold because I have my neck warming materials set.

I brought Barack down to the living room to live for the next few days. He looks riiiiight at home, although I can tell he misses my bedroom, if you know what I mean.

I also started my Christmas shopping today. Only one item, but all the same - I was prouuuuud of myself. And it's for someone that is an absolute gem, and I want to give it to them now....and I'm really ridiculously bad at waiting to give presents, so this will kill me for two whole months. While I was shopping, I found these shoes that I might be in love with, but it could just be a fling. I still feel pretty passionately about them, but I can't buy shoes till January, so I better get over my crush....but aren't they super cute??

Yea, they are...you don't even have to tell me. If I could find a pic of my scarf, I would put that up too, and then you would also be in love. Forever.

Annnnnnd, two quotes I like today:

"Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for the truth." ~Benjamin Disraeli

"You can't hide crazy forever." J. Novotny, via, K. Yockey.